vibrating rings for .. what?!

spend all your time waiting

for that second chance

for a break that would make it okay

there’s always one reason

to feel not good enough

and it’s hard at the end of the day

i need some distraction

oh beautiful release

memory seeps from my veins

let me be empty and weightless and maybe

i’ll find some peace tonight

(sarah mclachlan - angel)

feeling a bit under the weather. voice is funny. can feel it tinkle and squeak everytime i talk. short of breath. chest is congested. hope it will clear up soon. mum's telling me off for being slightly sick - okay then. 4 more weeks until my first exam. hooray. i'm pumped. can you tell?

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look at what i saw when i was checking my statistics:

notice something strange? the words in green perhaps? .. the hell! how on earth is 'aanjz' related to anything sexual like that! sheesh!

call the fire brigade! ny's cooking in the kitchen! (hehe jk)

angie:
and we are not invited to dinner?

nybee:
lol no cos its me and tony's dinner
rofls

angie:
every fri nite?
aww thats okay =)
hehe just teasing

nybee:
nah just this friday

angie:
we'll just organise a dinner too
and sit at the table next to you
accidentally
lol
jk

nybee:
we're gonna cook food at my house
liek a real dinner

angie:
OH OH OH OH OH
that's so sweet!

nybee:
rofls
wot the
lol

angie:
squeeling like crazy

nybee:
why !

angie:
thats so romantic
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

nybee:
haahhaha
yeah we'll have candles n shit too
ROFLS

angie:
u guys are SOO CUTE
hahahahahahaha
ur parents will be like .. wdf
candles for what?
blackout?
hahahahahaha

angie:
what u guys cooking

nybee:
chicken kievs with some vegies and probs chippies !
and apple and guava juice
yeah first proper dinner together rofls

angie:
how do candles? its still so bright at 6
wat. go in ur room and close curtains?
hahahahahahaha

nybee:
i'm joking about the candles
hahaha

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amanda and i (this is a good pic of me taken 6 months ago and i don't look like that in real life. stretch that pic out by a few cm's and thats my face now)

the most ferral thing happened at work today! a customer tried on one of our lacey black cocktail dresses. amanda picked it up and immediately threw it away from her - in front of all the customers! she just left in laying there on the carpet and gave me a sick look - like she was going to vomit right there and then lol. turns out the dress absolutely reaks of stinky body odour. and since she didn't wanna touch it, i picked it up off the floor with a wooden hanger and omg, as i was picking it up - mind you it was a metre away from me - i realised how strong the smell was! and i had a semi-blocked nose too! it was as if a compulsive farter just farted all over it! eww except the smell was of body odour! or maybe both!

ewww. it was gross enough for me to deprive myself of food for a good few hours. you know, i just don't understand how someone can just stink so bad .. to such an extreme extent. ooh, i feel sick just thinking about it now! *shivers up my spine* didn't i say not to forget your deodorant! aiyaya ..

and my goodness, it is currently 1.43am and tayo my je je just dropped me off an oreo mcflurry from mc'ds! awwwww love you and try not to crash the car je je! (she's learning manual hahaha) and you be careful about the other thing i said! *wink wink* boys will be boys!

mum received a parking fine yesterday at springgy for parking longer than indicated.

mum: here's $50 so you can pay it tomorrow

angie: nah, too lazy mum hehe

mum: what? no time? when then?

angie: how about now? it allows for payment over the internet

mum: but it's closed now. people are having dinner.

angie: not the internet. you can pay it anytime, day or night.

mum: but there will be no people on the other side of the computer? people are at home? eating dinner? how will they know we've paid for it?

angie: it will go into the councils computer database.

mum: oh .. what about the money? how are you going to send this $50 note off? where's the slot in the computer to slip it in? and what if it gets lost?

angie: hahahaha mum! everythings done online these days. i have a netbank account, they can debit it out of my credit card.

mum: you have a credit card .. ?!!

angie: oh .. uh yes. its miscellaneous these days! don't worry, it's limited to a mere $200.

mum: mmm okay then. whoa that's so clever! so how will they know that i paid for it? will the computer tell them tomorrow?

angie: lol i don't know. if the infringement has been paid, then uh .. your name will be deleted from the database? or it will be marked as paid?

mum: oooh okay *puzzled look* good girl.


technologically unaware people, gotta love them! lol.

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pictures from 'the beach club' taken a few weeks ago ..

ny, susan, tayo, angie, tony, chez, and steven

sorry it's really blurry. thats what happens when i resize them =(

tayo, susan, ny, angie, chez

angie, chez, and .. i don't know this man and neither does chez lol

you should know our names by now

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and here are some random ones lol ..

if thats the size of a pigs stomach, i wonder how big the human size is?
'cause that definately aint gonna fit all the food i eat per day!
mine would of exploded by now!

a pic of joyce and i at dinner after work. her smile is double the size of mine!
and she is merely grinning in this pic!
i'll need a pair of clamps to get my mouth to smile like that!

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ok, and now a boring questionnaire ..

50 questions

1. your name spelled backwards:
eigna (sounds russian or something!)

2. where were your parents born?
dad and mum: china and cambodia respectively

3. what is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
lecture notes .. sad i know. oh, i just realised that i haven't downloaded mp3's for years

4. what's your favorite restaurant?
hmmmm, i don't have one

5. when was the last time you swam in a pool?
yikes, i don't even remember

6. have you ever been in a school play?
shamelessly yes! a christmas play .. lol. ooh, i'm getting flashbacks and i suddenly feel very uncomfortable ..

7. how many kids do you want?
depends on the p.a.i.n! but if pain were no option, then 3 (max)

8. type of music you dislike most?
rap, really really s-l-o-w rnb, grunge (does that still exist?), hmm that's about all?

9. are you registered to vote?
yes. else i'd be in jail?!

10. do you have a car?
yeps! thank goodness ..

11. have you ever ridden on a moped?
.. ridden on a moped? huh? no? i don't know what you mean ..

12. ever prank called anybody?
like to play jokes on? haha of course! who hasn't, don't lie!

13. ever got a parking ticket?
yes, yes, yes ..

14. would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
how about both! feel the adrenalin rush pumping through your veins! funny how i talk of doing all this when i can't even force myself to look down from the top level of a multi-level shopping centre. *shakes head*

15. furthest place you ever traveled?
vietnam

16. do you have a garden?
one that i regularly tend to? no ..

17. what's the size of your bed?
king single - anything less and my legs will be hanging off!

18. do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
yes i do. but i just don't remember them .. lol.

19. bath or shower, morning or night?
shower, both. more so at night.

20. best movie you've seen in the past 4 months?
i can't remember. was ice age 2 released within the last 4 months? if not, then hoodwinked. oh no! wait, i choose the devil wears prada! that was pretty good!

21. what's the next movie you want to see?
hmm, not really keen on the up and coming ones

22. chips or popcorn?
chips. more variety!

23. have you ever broken any hearts?
oh, i don't know ..

24. premarital affairs?
affairs before marriage? while you are engaged? hell no! diu ..

25. are you a good cook?
hehe getting there la ..

26. orange or apple juice?
orange juice! you receive too much crap if you drink apple juice. "ewww, you look like you're drinking urine!"

27. who was the last person you went out to dinner with and where did you go to?
my cousin esther. i forgot it's name, but it's that thai restaurant situated just outside crown on southbank.

28. favorite type of drink?
water, water, tea, smoothies

29. best thing in the world?
that you've made a positive impact on someone's life, or that you've made someones day. oh and feeling loved

30. have you ever broken a bone?
no *touch-wood*

31. have you ever won a trophy?
nope. not those heavy statuesque things

32. what is your favorite board game?
uh, i don't really play board games. i don't even remember one. uno? but that doesn't have a board does it. i pass

33. what is your dream car?
lexus, mercedes or .. anything absolutely luxurious with a sexy interior

34. ever order an article from an infomercial?
no. but damn, they are good! they nearly sold me a set of ceramic knives at two in the morning!

35. coke or pepsi?
neither. i don't like softdrinks. but if i just haaaad to choose. hmm, pepsi sorry

36. have you ever had to wear a uniform to work?
yes, once upon a time. ooh, the memories =)

37. last thing you bought at a pharmacy?
umm, medicine on behalf of my dad?

38. who are you going to marry?
a human being, hopefully ..

39. who would you like to meet?
oprah! buddha, lillian too (met her, but would like a chance to sit down and have a convo with her), robert kiyosaki, daniel wu and jerry yan! pleaaaase!

40. do you believe in love at first sight?
yes

41. what features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
eyes, smile, jawline (totally sexy), and the overall package

42. where would you go for a romantic evening?
oh, doesn't really matter. anywhere memorable =)

43. how many pairs of shoes do you own?
i haven't counted. but maybe under 10? half of which i don't wear. actually, i don't wear all but three pairs - including my havaianas! this is a disgrace since i am a woman! lol ..

44. last song stuck in your head?
evermore - light surrounding you

45. any pets?
no, but i wish i had a dog or a cute chimpanzee!

46. what's your all time favorite saturday night live character?
ok 1. i don't watch the show (because they don't show it here?), and 2. i don't know any characters from it because .. (refer to first point)

47. what is one thing you would like to learn to do?
right now? to cook like a gourmet chef! although i doubt that's going to happen any time soon ..

48. what do you do when you are bored?
if i am stuck at home: raid the fridge, read, surf the net, games ..

49. what is one thing you would want someone to appreciate about you?
me, as a whole. flaws and all

50. what is one thing you are grateful for today?
i have (and will continue to have) kind and understanding tutors. *fingers crossed and double crossed*

i love ..

i love grey's anatomy

(izzie walks in on george showering)

george: i don't think you understand. me - gonads! you - ovaries!

izzie: oh, that reminds me. we are out of tampons.

george: you're parading through the bathroom in your underwear, while i'm naked in the shower!

izzie: will you add it to your list, please?

george: what?

izzie: tampons!

meredith: to the list. it's your turn.

george: i am a man! i don't buy girl products. i don't want to see you walking in while i'm in the shower. and i don't wanna see you in your underwear!

izzie: it doesn't bother me, okay? look at me in my underwear, george. take your time, it's no big deal.

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i love beyonce

pop star beyonce knowles has sparked controversy by saying she only makes records for black people. since the deja vu singer made the astonishing statement sales of her new album, b'day, have fallen by 70 per cent in the u.s.

beyonce, 25, said in an interview with blender magazine: "i make black records. i write records like i speak, and i don't try to change my songs so everyone else likes them."

personally i think the media has taken what she's said out of context.

she's black, so she makes black records, but not just for black people!

it's for everyone?!

i think she composed her words without realising it's potential consequences.

she's too intelligent to say something that could jeopardize her career.

i still love her!

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i love youtube

the other day i came across a video courtesy of lony. it's of a japanese game show. a bunch of guys are shown a funny video of this poor fobby guy trying his best to read english. basically, if any one of the guys start laughing, they get a loud, paaaainful whack on their behind!

the funniest bit is when the poor fobby guy attempts to count to 100. at first he does really well, but once he reaches 20 .. lol! and once he reaches 100 it's even more hilarious! hahaha "uh .. ten ten .. ten ten ten ten ten ten ten .. ten"

darnnnnn you people with adsl/cable/broadband/anything faster than dial-up! =(

george carlin's view on ageing

do you realize that the only time in our lives when we like to get old is when we're kids? if you're less than 10 years old, you're so excited about aging that you think in fractions. "how old are you?" "i'm four and a half!" you're never thirty-six and a half. you're four and a half, going on five! that's the key.

you get into your teens, now they can't hold you back. you jump to the next number, or even a few ahead. "how old are you?" "i'm gonna be 16!" you could be 13, but hey, you're going to be 16! and then the greatest day of your life, you become 21. even the words sound like a ceremony. you become 21! yessssss!!!

but then you turn 30. oooh, what happened there? makes you sound like bad milk. he turned; we had to throw him out. there's no fun now, you're just a sour-dumpling. what's wrong? what's changed? you become 21, you turn 30, then you're pushing 40. whoa! put on the brakes, it's all slipping away! before you know it, you reach 50, and your dreams are gone. but wait!!! you make it to 60. you didn't think you would! so you become 21, turn 30, push 40, reach 50 and make it to 60. you've built up so much speed that you hit 70!

after that it's a day-by-day thing; you hit wednesday! you get into your 80s and every day is a complete cycle; you hit lunch; you turn 4:30; you reach bedtime. and it doesn't end there. into the 90s, you start going backwards; "i was just 92." then a strange thing happens. if you make it over 100, you become a little kid again. "i'm 100 and a half!" may all of you make it to a 100 and a half!

how to stay young ..

• throw out nonessential numbers. this includes age, weight and height. let the doctor worry about them. that is why you pay him/her.

• keep only cheerful friends. the grouches pull you down.

• keep learning. learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. never let the brain idle. "an idle mind is the devil's workshop." and the devil's name is alzheimer's.

• enjoy the simple things.

• laugh often, long and loud. laugh until you gasp for breath.

• the tears happen. endure, grieve, and move on. the only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves.

• be ALIVE while you are alive.

• surround yourself with what you love. whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. your home is your refuge.

• cherish your health: if it is good, preserve it. if it is unstable, improve it. if it is beyond what you can improve, get help.

• don't take guilt trips. take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to a foreign country, but not to where the guilt is.

• tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity!
  

and always remember ..

life is not measured by the number of breaths we take,

but by the moments that take our breath away.

harajuku girls retire at age 20

whoa, just .. wow okay ..

the girl on the right has a nice body!

interesting .. it's like halloween 24/7 over there!

meanwhile this person looks like a real-life manga!

comprised mostly of high school girls and girls under 20, they are best known for their excessive makeup, tan bodies and outlandish platinum blonde and pink hair styles.

when the gals reach retirement age at 20 an unwritten code dictates they say goodbye to the makeup and the wild hair. that code is called the real world outside the group.

whoa, i never knew that. you can read more about it here

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a bit of trivia for you

1. what is the only ten letter word you can make with the letters from the top row of a keyboard?

2. what is a rhino's horn made out of?

3. at any given time, 0.7 of the worlds population is drunk. true or false?

(answers: 1. typewriter; 2. compound hair; 3. true)

stupid .. stupid me.

*shocked*

i just did the most stupidest thing ..

i just accidentally deleted a whole bunch of academic journal articles from my usb ...

i was supposed to transfer them onto my pc. somehow i felt the urge to delete them instead?! i freaking can't get it back!

it took me hours to find .. and read! and they were damn good journals too!!

for you uni students out there you should know how painful that feels ..

i've just taken 1 major step back from completing this 3,000 word assignment ..

going to go bang my head against a brick wall ..

somebody .. kill me. now.





(just kidding! don't kill me! wait until i finish exams first!)

thank goodness for deodorant!

it's 30 degrees today and i. hate. it. i freaking hate summer and hot weather all together! argh, even though its not summer yet, somedays it sure does feel like it. today is a a prime example. pfft, i hate getting sweaty and hot and stuffy! it makes me agitated, super impatient and mega grouchy! and don't come near me when it's hot! arghhh! everything just smells ten times stronger when the weather is hot! nobody fart, burp or wave your arms around me! and please please people, don't forget to apply your deodorant before you leave the house!

great, i am so looking forward to working in the next few months! you don't understand how many people come into the shops and try on clothes only to freaking stink up the fitting rooms when they leave. when i say fitting rooms, i mean plural! not singular! the whole place just reeks and flies will just drop and die! ok maybe not the last bit, but gawd damn some people are professionals at leaving an invisible trail of bad odour! you can easily tell where they've walked and what they've tried on! haha .. many a times we find that we have to put a dress or top into dry-cleaning after it has been tried on, simply because it smells that blardy pungent! bad enough to be placed in a temporary locked fitting room just because it'll reek out the back-room where dry-cleaning is supposed to be placed!

michelle rodriguez attempting to lick her armpit regrowth .......

i'm sure you guys will all agree that there is nothing worser than an absolutely gorgeous chick, walking gracefully towards you with her dazzling smile and mesmarizing eyes, only to find that your bubbles been popped when she walks past you, leaving a strong trail of killer body odour! fwoar, a woman like that will make you faint all right! you'll never forget her! but all for the wrong reasons!

put on deodorant with a smile on your face like her!

*sigh* how do you expect me to give you good customer service if i can't breathe la! it's suffocating, i'm sorry to say. somebody buy me a pretty peg so i can clip my nose at work! i know the majority of females do the right thing and practice good hygiene, but for the other percentage of people who just don't give a damn about themselves, at least do it for others! in particular the ones who strut around in sleeveless tops that show their wild, untamed, jungular-looking armpit hair! that was in fashion back in the 1960's! nearly half a century ago!

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on another note, you'll find that i am on 'away' or 'busy' on msn most of the time. that is, in actual fact, because i am not entirely 'there' to freely chatter about nothingness, so don't get mad at me if you've messaged, only to find that you have (or have not) receive a delayed respose. by the time i realise i have received your message, you'll have most likely gone offline by then. and no, this is not directed to one person in particular. it's directed to all that have messaged the past few days. i'm sorry! too many assignments to tend to! i have been busy and tired and sometimes i just cannot be bothered conversing you know ..

it must be love

my favourite couple right this minute is .. *drum rolls*

ny and tony!

why? because it has been a long time since i've seen two individuals feel so comfortable and at ease with each other. the vibe they emitt is just amazing! it's always so pleasant to be around them. but most of all, i've never seen my beautiful ny happier. with tony, she's in a much calmer disposition .. less grouchy you know! so you see, i benefit from this relationship too! hahaha ..

just so .. perfect for each other as you can see hehe =p

it is still early days but *fingers crossed* things will continue to go as smooth as it has for a while yet. meanwhile, cupids arrow has recently targeted another one of my friends. however, it's only been of late that they are getting to know each other. apparently they went on their first official date yesterday (saturday night). oooh i hope everything went well! i can't wait till that girl comes online so i can grill her for details! hahaha, i hope he is a good catch. she really deserves it .. =)

that is NOT my head (although i wish it was!) i just LOVE this picture! he is so into her!

so best of luck to these two amazing girls!! come on people, lift up your mouses and yell out "cheers!" hehehe, don't laugh at me. love is grand =)

xox

wierd dreams and indecisive hips!

i had the most bizarre dream last night!!

i was back in high school and in year 12 again. even though i was still 22 years old in the dream, it felt like i was doing year 12 for the first time in my life. what's odd, is that some of the people i recognized in the dream were actually a few years above me! so somehow in the dream they must of been doing year 14 or 15? hahaha!

i was making my way to the ladies toilets with ny following close behind me. we were both wearing our summer dresses. why i was wearing the school summer dress beats me since i retired from wearing skirts and dresses since the beginning of year 11. and so while making our way to the ladies, we had to barge into and disrupt a classroom (hence the familiar faces) because apparently it was the only way to get to the toilets .. which turned out to be located in a random office (yes, with carpet) near the princples office .. okay wierd.

surely there would of been a more convenient way to get to the toilets, but nope .. not in my dream! so finally ny and i got to the ladies room - inside an office - with carpet, and i was finally able to relieve myself (or so i thought). so as ny was primping herself in front of the mirror, i went to the toilet only to find the toilet seats too high for me to sit my behind on! give or take a few seconds, i find myself sitting on top of the toilet but finding it hard to 'let it flow' or so to say.

suddenly i hear loud footsteps and in stomps a loud asian woman talking in her native tongue to her friend on the walkie talkie. then all of a sudden, a mop appears in her hand and she's mopping away, cleaning the floors. but hold on, the room is furnished with carpet isn't it? well in dreams, anything is possible. so not surprisingly, the floors have miraculously transformed itself from the khaki green (eww such an appropriate colour for a toilet is it not?!) carpet, into off-white tiles!

but how did i know she was mopping, if i was apparently sitting in an absurdly high toilet seat in a cubicle with WALLS?! uh, telepathy i suppose? lol. and if you think that's wierd enough, how about this bit where i get hit in the head with what i thought was a basketball?! but no, it wasn't a basketball even though it felt like one. as i tilted my head back i realise that the mop (the same mop the lady was using to clean the carpet - turn - tiles) somehow, SOMEHOW landed on my head! and since anything is possible in dreams, she somehow managed to throw the mop at such an angle that it was able to go through the tiny gap between the cubicle walls and the ceiling, and onto my freakin head .. IN AN UPRIGHT POSITION TOO! how the hell could anyone manage to throw a freakin mop into a cubicle, only to find that it has landed on my head in a freakin upright position? pfft, only in dreams!!

and THEN what happens? .. and then i woke up! =)

don't i look like a rag doll? hehe

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meanwhile, i am finding it hard to dress these days. it's a bit hard when all your pants (minus three) don't fit anymore! bah, i have no problem with gaining weight, but it is a pain in the arse not knowing what size i am (and will be), because the bottom half of my body can't seem to make up it's mind on what size it wants to be! i gained a few decent kgs, but somehow i think i have lost just a little bit of it now. a few weeks ago i was desperate enough to get myself a new pair of jeans. they fitted perfectly (if not a little snug!) back then .. and now? NOW? it's too loose. loose enough for me to rummage around for a long-enough piece of ribbon to hold up my jeans! damn youuuu thunder thighs!

i can't fit into those jeans anymore =(

see those jeans in the picture? that was the first time i wore them. unfortunately it was also the last time, as i haven't been able to get my fat arse back into it since. i tried again last night but to no avail. it was stuck halfway up my thighs. i was thinking that if i do all the jumping and wriggling then i might just be able to make it! but no, my thighs wouldn't let me! meeeeehh i like those jeans =( no fair! it's okay though, because i am not planning to lose this additional weight any time soon! it took months of binge eating to get to where i am today!

* disclaimer: yeah girls out there i know, you're probably thinking "is she nuts? what drugs is she on?!" sorry folks, the only drug i am on at the moment is panadol - to get rid of my head cold. i just don't like looking like a stick, especially at my height. i just want to be a little bit more plump but it's so annoying because for the first time in my life i know where my fat gets deposited! my thighs! diu, i wish my fat could disperse itself a bit more equally! not fair on my arms and torso you know .. pretty soon i'm gonna look like a gigantic oompa loompa!

what it feels like to have your period

life sucks .. today.

i am expecting soon.

my period that is (sorry for mentioning it).

during the days leading up to my period i always feel so weak ..

like someone's drained the life outta me.

swimming in a sea of red. hehe >_<

no matter how many hours i sleep per night, i'm still tired when i wake up .. and will most likely need another little lie down sometime during the day. it's so frustrating because it affects my mentality and i find it difficult to get things done when i am lacking the ability to concentrate .. *sigh* i feel so depressed, for no reason other than my tiredness ..

perfect recipe for PMS!

anyways, below is a funny conversation i had with julian magoolian last night hehe. uh, if you're eating or drinking anything at the moment, i strongly advise you to stop reading on right .. about .. now.



hey, don't say i didn't warn you!



angie:
wanna have my period for me?

julian:
kind of
i would like to know would it would feel like to shed the lining of my uterus

angie:
really?
LOL ..
its a wierd feeling having your period come outta u
its like when ur drinking alki
u know how u can feel it go down ur throat
and its all warm?
its like that ..
but on a lower part of ur body

julian:
lolll
omg
wdf
LOL
thats... very.. descriptive
hehe
LOL

angie:
lol..
u wanted to know how it feels la~!
just helping u
hehe

it's a baby suri debut!

can everyone say, "goo goo ga ga!"

pictures of baby suri has finally surfaced, smashing all false rumours that suri had a health problem, that suri had some kind of deformity, and even assumed the extreme, that little baby suri never even existed!

she is absolutely gorgeous, and look at that head of hair!

so cute! bite tom's nose off, suri!

holmes says of her daughter: "she's a glorious girl. she's the miracle of our life."

i think baby suri is absolutely beautiful. for some reason i think she looks a little russian .. lol. its the hair and the eyes .. i've never seen such a baby. but anyway, suri is so gorgeous. i want one! goodness, i'm feeling very clucky these days. i think it is an amazing process, bringing life into this world. =)

insomnia. again!

i can't sleep. again ..

i am again having one of those sleepless nights. nights like these really frustrate the pimples outta me (no joke - i am now guaranteed a pimple when i wake up!). on such occassions i have to get out of bed because my mind is just too active with irrelevant nonsense. oh, and i just had a not so little midnight snack.

so being the master time waster i am, this will be my third blog entry for today. gee, i have so much to say don't i! hehe no, not really. i have noticed of late that i haven't been on msn as much as i usually am. but that doesn't mean i'm not connected to the internet every single night. i think for the past seven or so years when i first started using the internet, i have since been connecting on a nightly basis whenever i am at home.

the internet. whoa, can you imagine the type of world we'd be living in if the internet was never invented and introduced? erm, probably the same as we were back then lol. but yes, it would be impossible to measure the magnitude of the internet and how it's changed the way we live. it's made a tremendous impact on everyone and everything, hasn't it? from providing businesses with endless opportunities, a new way of communication and networking, the abundance of information available, to the glory of internet shopping! you can find and buy nearly anything anywhere in the world! but not to say, that the internet also has it's many cons. for instance, it has brought many new methods of committing crime and what not .. but i'd rather not discuss it =)

argh, talking about going off on a tangent! actually, the point of me discussing the internet was to bring up my issues on blogging. but not surprisingly, i end up straying off the topic completely. it's a bad habit you know. it's especially inconvenient when i am typing up an essay. considering the word limit and all, i always somehow manage to write up hundreds of words of something that need not be discussed in great lengths. needless to say, i'd have to delete the whole paragraph(s) and start all over again.

and that was another perfect example of me rambling off again! argh, *slaps fingers*. it's because i'm not tired! well, i am little bit now. ok the issue of me blogging. i've been blogging for just about over a year now - whoa, i can't believe how fast it has been! it feels like i wrote my very first entry yesterday .. i still feel like an amateur blogger. ooh, feeling a tad nostalgic .. *wipes away a tear* lol! just kidding.

sometimes i feel like i am hiding under something i can't/don't want to get rid of ..

ever since i started blogging i have really enjoyed it. as i mentioned in my old blog, it's my personal outlet. i can do and say whatever i want, can't i? no, not really. or at least not with the latter. blogs are online journals, and i am supposed to sometimes share my personal thoughts and experiences, am i not?

or in the least, i should feel comfortable enough to expose a more personal part of myself, whether that be in the form of stories, experiences, and my personal thoughts and issues. sometimes i feel the urge to publish something, only to either find myself deleting the entry at a later stage (say, a few minutes after i post it), or simply closing the browser all together (before i publish it).

i find myself dwelling over what other people may think of the meaning i am trying to convey. but you know, for as long as we are all alive, there will always be people out there who will criticize how we are and what we do/say. if there is day, there must be night. if there is hot, there must be cold. if something is right, there must be wrong. and lastly, if there is love, there must be hate. i understand there will always be a few rotten fishes in the sea, and that it is impossible to try to please and not offend anyone. i don't know, i guess i'm just afraid some people may see me in a negative light? it's an uncomfortable thought, not knowing who my readers are, some of which regularly follow me on my journey in what we call 'life'.

i equate sharing a more personal side of me to taking risks. and as far as risks and gambling is concerned, i'm not much of a risk-taker. if anything, i like to operate in safe-mode and once in a while i'll try my luck.

.. but you know what? if i never wanted the possibility of being judged, silently criticized and/or frowned upon, then i should never have started blogging to begin with. hmm, simple as that.

anyways, i think i have sufficiently rambled on enough. sorry to bore you all. this entry was so boring to type that i am actually really tired now .. lol. nah, it's been playing on my mind for a while now .. so it's nice to let it out into the open .. space .. of .. nothingness. i will try to be a bit more open but we'll see how i go. and if i'm not, well at least you know why now =)

goodness, how long is this entry?! *sigh* if i only i could simply copy and paste this entry into my assignment, i could use up a significant portion of the word count! hah, yeah .. and pigs might fly.

take care sweeties,
xox

bee-stung lips are sexy

hey, why is it i feel so ugly liddat ..

am i as sexy as angelina jolie with my 'beestung lips'?

come on plee, just one kiss! don't be tighty arsie!

and that, my children, is a scary example of what can happen to you if you use and abuse botox. now, how to inflate my lips ..

* je je: hope you are feeling a little better today .. it will be hard but hey, it is only after you experience the dark effects of the storm that you can truely experience the glory of the sunshine that follows .. love you heaps je je *muahs* p.s. can we please go eat crab noodle soup again, preferrably sometime soon?! i'll try not to splash myself with soup the next time we go =)

movie: d.o.a

last saturday night i went to watch the movie D.O.A (dead or alive). D.O.A is a movie adaptation of the best selling video game series. now, i'm no movie critic and i usually enjoy every movie i see, and D.O.A is not an exception. however, i did think the story-line was a bit weak and boring. apart from being so darn predictable, i also thought the level of acting was quite poor. but what made it so entertaining was the amount of eye candy in every scene - the girls! oh whoa, what is more sexier than a bunch of sexy ladies kickin' the arse of testosterone-filled males? ^^

devon aoki, holly valance (HOT), sarah carter, jaime pressly, and the gorgeous natassia malthe

holly valance and sarah carter fighting it out (this is such a guy's flick!)

kick his arse jaime! fwoar, i'm surprised her jeans didn't rip in the process!

jaime's at it again!

great movie with hot chicks and cool fight scenes! this is really sad to admit, but i came out of the movie feeling a little bit tired! i couldn't help but flinch and move as i was watching some of the fighting scenes! it was as if i was physically there, battling my arse off - but ofcourse, not to that extreme. lol just slight little movements was all it was. hey! shoosh.

anyways, it's nice to see holly valance dabbling in a little bit of acting, since her music career has gone downhill since the day it started hehe .. i think she has great potential, i hope to see her in many films to come. =)

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okay this is totally non-related. this is just a picture i found of a cat that looks like hitler! do you see the resemblance people? hehe, for more of these pics go to cats that look like hitler.com =)

vat? vat eiz it zat yer lukin at?

hehe just feel the urge to insert a quick german joke:

the european commission has just announced an agreement whereby english will be the official language of the european union rather than german, which was the other possibility.

as part of the negotiations, the british government conceded that english spelling had some room for improvement and has accepted a 5- year phase-in plan that would become known as “euro-english” (or preferably, “si english”).

in the first year, “s” will replace the soft “c”. sertainly, this will make the sivil servants jump with joy. the hard “c” will be dropped in favour of “k”. this should klear up konfusion, and keyboards kan have one less letter. there will be growing publik enthusiasm in the sekond year when the troublesome “ph” will be replaced with “f”. this will make words like fotograf 20% shorter.

in the 3rd year, publik akseptanse of the new spelling kan be expekted to reach the stage where more komplikated changes are possible.

governments will enkourage the removal of double letters which have always ben a deterent to akurate speling.

also, al wil agre that the horibl mes of the silent “e” in the languag is disgrasful and it should go away.

by the 4th yer people wil be reseptiv to steps such as replasing “th” with “z” and “w” with “v”.

during ze fifz yer, ze unesesary “o” kan be dropd from vords containing “ou” and after ziz fifz yer, ve vil hav a reil sensibl riten styl.

zer vil be no mor trubl or difikultis and evrivun vil find it ezi tu understand ech oza. ze drem of a united urop vil finali kum tru.

und efter ze fifz yer, ve vil al be speking german like zey vunted in ze forst plas.

random ramblings #1

isn't it ironic how two of australia's most famous icons - steve irwin and peter brock, have both died doing what they loved? and it's even stranger to know they both passed-away within the last fortnight! my goodness, makes you wonder who death is going to target next week! =( *sigh* r.i.p peter brock you car racing legend.

random thoughts

(that are really random indeed)

i forgot how to ride a bmx bicycle .. how sad

do you remember the first day you rode your bike without training wheels? awww ..

AAAAAAAAAHHHH!! 5 assignments to do before the 24th of sept! which is two weeks away! aiyoh .. i die.

did i mention i am the master procrastinator? *sigh*, it's nothing to be proud of =(

i would one day like to face/conquer my fears of heights.

meanwhile, the chicken parma from 'reactor' in chaddy is the best!

whoa, how unique is this butterfly!

it's been a long time since i've seen a pretty butterfly.

and what ever happened to those 'wagon wheel' chocolate bars? do they still exist? i've never ever tried one.

i am currently on a cheesecake binge =D

hehehe ..

i love having breakfast with friends. mmm, egg bennedict ..

green mango's coated in a glorious amount of palm sugar sauce make me salivate like craaaazy!

interesting fact: asparagus is damn good brain food, but makes your urine smell, err funny lol. go try!

when was the last time you danced in the rain?

.. when was the last time there was enough rain to dance in?!

so comfy and colourful! hee hee =D

i adore peter alexander p.j's! soo comfty! except their sizes are a bit whacked!

i wish i could fly .. just by simply flapping my arms .. just like my dreams ..

i love pickled apples. in fact, i like everything pickled!

oh oh and i also love everything toasted! focaccia's are absolutely delish!

no, i don't smoke. the cig. came with the lips that i 'borrowed'.

did you know i am allergic to prawns? everytime i eat prawns my lips swell ={} like right now .. but it doesn't stop me from eating them =D

don't you hate it when you're on a plane and when it starts to land - your eardrums hurt like crazy from the rapid decrease in alititude AND the sound of babies crying their heart out?!

lets all float away, just for one day ..

i wish i was i was lying on a yatch, floating in the middle of the ocean on a nice summers day

i feel like a sugar cane. how come they no sell anywhere now?!

ack, itchy ass.

i want to wear a kimono and eat sushi! lol ..

"allo, who flung dung?"

this is my favourite picture of myself

and last but not least, i was once a punk rocker with a flower in my hair. hehe =D

insomnia. bugger.

joke of the week:

a little boy and girl are playing in a sandbox. the little boy has to go to take a pee and he was told by his mother to always be polite and don't talk about private matters in public.

at first he holds it in for a little while because he does not know what to say to the little girl to excuse himself. then he remembers what his mom had said at the restaurant to excuse herself from the table.

so he turns to the little girl and says, 'will you excuse me. i have to go powder my nose,' leaps out of the sandbox and runs to the bathroom.

when he comes back the little girl looks up at him and asks 'did you powder your nose?'

'yes,' said the little boy stepping back into the sandbox.

'well then,' says the little girl, 'you'd better close your purse because your lipstick is hanging out.'

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i can't sleep! i went to sleep 2 hrs ago only to wake up 2 hrs later! i can't sleep! *yaaawns* don't you hate it when your body is so damn tired, but your mind is still as active as ever!

by the way, sorry if my blog is a bit plain and boring - blame it on the lack of visuals. i don't have any photos to put up! honest. i will not be taking photos until my face decides to lose a little bit of weight. so to make up for it i'll just add a recent picture of my sexy ny. it's ok, she won't find out about it because she doesn't read this blog. i won't tell if you won't tell!

whoa, eye candy! the sexy ny schmee is on the left!

meanwhile, life is boring right now. same ol' monotonous routine day in and day out. nothing exciting ever happens! athough, i should be careful with my words in case i jinx myself *runs to the kitchen to touch wood*. i would rather have a boring life in contrast to one filled with drama after drama. or would i ..

ok, that's enough for tonight. time to hurl myself into bed for attempt number two.

i had such a crazy dream last night. like 'what the?!'. wonder what dreams i'll have tonight!

o(-_-)o zZzzzz ..

the body is like a bodhi tree

the body is like a bodhi tree

our nature a mirror bright

day by day we polish the mirror

and let no dust alight

the body is not like the bodhi tree

nor our nature a mirror bright

since all is void

how can dust alight

(hui neng)


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kin says:

*pats pats* don't stress yourself, angie.. take life with a grain of salt.. we all have out own journey through life.. and you've still got a long way to go..

a n g i e * says:

hey i don't get that salt analogy
what does it mean?

kin says:

it's like eating plain rice.. it can be boring.. and tasteless.. but give it a bit of salt, and it will taste different, but it's still the same rice.. = meaning, don't be so serious and frustrated about life and your problems.. take it lightly and try to add a bit of "spice" or humour to it and concentrate on what really matters..

turtles!

awww, look at some of the beautiful ppl on my msn list with turtles commemorate steve irwin ..

very short entry. was just bored. =D

tribute to an australian legend - steve irwin

as i was driving home from uni this afternoon, i heard some disturbing news from fox fm. as the message was broadcast, i felt a chill run down my spine. it really took me by surprise because it was just so sudden, like .. huh? no way, that's impossible! he can't just leave like that! but sadly it's true. steve irwin, the infamous australian crocodile hunter, died today. he was stung through the heart by a stingray while diving off port douglas.

the famous animal lover who put australia on the map

steve irwin, the ebullient australian tv personality and conservationist known as the crocodile hunter, was killed monday by a stingray barb to the heart during a diving expedition, police and his wildlife park said.

irwin, 44, was filming an underwater sequence for a television series on remote batt reef off the far northeast coast of australia when he encountered the ray and was stung about 11 a.m., australia zoo, irwin's park, said in a statement.

crew members aboard irwin's boat, croc one, called emergency services in the nearest city, cairns, and administered cardio pulmonary resuscitation techniques as they rushed the boat to nearby low isle to meet a rescue helicopter.

medical staff pronounced irwin dead at about midday, the statement said.

"today the world has lost a great wildlife icon, a passionate conservationist and one of the proudest dads on the planet," john stainton, irwin's friend and producer who was on board croc one said in the statement.

"he died doing what he loves best and left this world in a happy and peaceful state of mind," he said. "crocs rule!"

(the canadian express 4-09-06)

sincere condolensces to steve's family and friends.

steve irwin is a huge loss to australia.

his legacy will live on and there will never be another one like him. ever.

it's a sad day today. may this fantastic ambassador for australia rest in peace.

bits and pieces (part 1)

a n g i e * says:
hey chhay

Kin says:
Mmm?

a n g i e * says:
do you believe in the universe sending you messages .. in the form of warnings. but if you pay no heed to this (your intuition) .. the universe keeps sending it to you, and gradually it builds up .. getting bigger and bigger each time. and if, after all that .. you still choose to pay no attention to it .. life gives you a HUGE wakeup call in the form of a life-threatening situation?

Kin says:
It's not the universe that's warning you.. but your higher self.. think of it in this way.. when you die and choose to live your life over again.. the exactly same life.. but with a minor difference.. you tell YOURSELF that when i get to that point in my life, i will take a different route... thus, that's why we sometimes experience dejavu.. because it's our higher self giving us hint that we've been here before and this is the crucial point where we take a different route..

but if we took the same route again, your higher self speak louder and tell you that you're going the wrong way (well.. the same way before).. and it will keep reminding you until you take a different route..

a n g i e * says:
whoa, the higher self is so clever!
hehehe ..

Kin says:
hehe
lets just say in your previous life.. you die at a young age (identical to this life)..
but in this life.. you choose not to.. thus ur higher self keeps warning you from taking the same path

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i clearly recall one episode of oprah, that after last nights incident, really stuck to me.

oprah to tracey gold:

now, my next question to you. how many times has this problem shown itself to you in other areas and you didn't respond? because my theory is…you've heard a whisper, you've had a message. … if you don't get the whisper, you get a little pebble upside the head, you get a brick, you get a brick wall, and then you get the whole wall falling down. this is your wall. but i know, just as anybody else who's watching here, for this to happen in your life this way means it's been whispering to you. it's been coming. it's been coming in other forms you did not pay attention to. and this is what it took for you to pay attention.

have you ever?

have you ever had that moment where, for just one second
it seems like your whole world has come crashing down
like a ball, airborne, and heading towards the ground
it's just about to hit the ground, but like the matrix, the scene just freezes
and you freeze, your brain is numb, and you seem to lose all sense of control ..

you can't process what just happened
and out of fear, you don't want to ..

it's like a nail-biting cliff-hanger ..
a million possible outcomes generate simultaneously through your mind
what's it gonna be? how will this story unfold?

that moment where the world fades to black
where its just you, and the unfamiliar voice at the end of the line
and it's hard to make out the the slurry of words spoken to you
but those words could have a significant impact on your life and what tomorrow holds ..

your life could drastically change
all within a matter of seconds
all because of a few spoken words ..



have you ever had that moment?

i have ..

and i'm that glad the ball never had a chance to hit the ground ..

"and this too, shall pass."

f.a.m.i.l.y

i bumped into a stranger as he passed by
"oh, excuse me please" was my reply
he said, "please excuse me too"
wasn't even watching for you."
we were very polite, this stranger and i
we went on our way and we said good-bye
but at home a different story is told
how we treat our loved ones, young and old

later that day, cooking the evening meal
my daughter stood beside me very still
when i turned, i nearly knocked her down
"move out of the way," i said with a frown
she walked away, her little heart was broken
i didn't realize how harshly i'd spoken

while i lay awake, that evening, in bed,
god's still small voice came to me and said,
"while dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
but the children you love, you seem to abuse
go look on the kitchen floor
you'll find some flowers there by the door
those are the flowers she brought for you
she picked them herself: pink, yellow and blue
she stood quietly not to spoil the surprise
and you never saw the tears in her eyes."

by this time, i felt very small
and now my tears began to fall
i quietly went and knelt by her bed;
"wake up, little girl, wake up," i said.
"are these the flowers you picked for me?"
she smiled, "i found 'em, out by the tree.
i picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
i knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
i said, "daughter, i'm sorry for the way i acted today;
i shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
she said, "oh, mom, that's okay. i love you anyway."
i said, "daughter, i love you too,
and i do like the flowers, especially the blue."

are you aware that:
if we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. but the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. and come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than to our family - an unwise investment indeed.

so what is behind the story-poem? do you know what is the meaning of the word of family?

FAMILY = (f)ather (a)nd (m)other (i) (l)ove (y)ou!

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